Let's get real

I want to be real with you: healing can suck sometimes. Waking up can be painful, overwhelming and doing the work it takes to heal old trauma wounds and ego personality traits, can really fucking suck sometimes. But I swear to you, with my entire heart and soul: it is worth it and it becomes the most beautiful thing you can and will ever do. Because people who are truly seeking to love themselves and be grateful for this given life, do this tough work. And everything that comes from and to love is beautiful and friggin worth it. 

It is hard to share here that “healing sucks sometimes”. My main objective for this blog is to Shine On You and for YOU to Shine On You with your own source of light and that way we can ask others permission to let us Shine on them too! So for this, the intention was to share my learning as I find and use my own light and interact with other people that resonate with the road taken. And I wanted to do all this in the most positive way possible. But unfortunately it’s not all glitter and rainbows. And we need to be able to talk about the nasty too.

This week I’ve been feeling more beaten down and angry than I have in a long while. I felt like quitting many times. I felt frustrated that all the work and money spent learning tools that will heal me and others, was not being assimilated really and I felt lost. I didn’t want to be in pain anymore. I was feeling great and suddenly I was reminded of the things I need to work on, and I was just so done with doing “the work”. I wanted to crawl back in the bubble of ignorance and low self-worth. But when you see, you can’t un-see. At least I promised myself I wouldn’t. 

I already had a taste of what it felt to step into my power and live by the truth and, I experienced the famous freedom that we all hear the truth gives when I decided to tell my story. So this last week, I kept going. Angry, frustrated, confused and all, I kept going. It was mechanical, the left side of my brain dictating my movements because the right side was on strike. I had to. You have to! You have to keep going! Why? Because as much as it can suck sometimes, it is the single most beautiful thing you can and will ever do. I said it before and I will a thousand times.

Yes, sometimes waiting in line for something can be annoying, but if you’re waiting in line is because you have a goal… so brave the weather and keep going. Know that you are not alone. Surround yourself with kindred souls, get Reiki (gimme a call!), go to conscious events, connect with other souls because we’ve all gone through the lows too. Do what you need, just don’t stop. Feel what you feel and don’t stop. Find that darkness and let hope Shine On You.

So so much love from my heart to yours. 

We can do this!